What am I doing?

I should be leaving in less than two weeks, although there is still no definitive date.

The closer the departure date, the more moments of self doubt I have - usually late at night (like now). Like, "why am I leaving my home, my family, my friends, my comfortable job, not to mention my country?"

But when I describe my new apartment to people, or when I show them the map of Krakow and point out all the landmarks, and the parks I'll go rollerblading in, and the river I hope to row in, I start to get really excited again.

Just not so much this very minute.